We Turned Into I, But I'm Making It About You.

We are all grateful for the amazing human beings in our lives, but it’s until something tragic happens that we really come to appreciate those beautiful and kind hearted human beings that have stuck with us no matter what. We become angry and bitter with everything, but we don’t show it because we try to put on our brave face for others dealing with it all. We lash out in different ways; some unnecessary, some cruel, and sometimes we just numb it out. We are always picking up others, but we tend to forget about ourselves in such trying times. We NEED to let those who love us be there for us, we NEED to remember to not shut them out, no matter how distant we may get. It’s hard to overcome our pride when it comes to the actual amount of strength we try to show off, when deep down we are hurting. I've come to realize that when it comes to my feelings, I’m better at writing them out than I am speaking them, but it’s because I’m afraid of showing my raw emotion to those closest to me. It’s almost like I drown those out and make them out to be strangers because I’m afraid of showing them that I’m not as strong as I make myself out to be. I was originally writing this to prove a point that we need to let others be there in our desperate times of need, but maybe this is turning out to be more of a “Hey, I’m here for you too and you can put some of that fear of letting someone be there for you on me.” So much has happened in the brief 2 months that I've been here, and it’s only made me realize that people are going to come and go, but those who say I love you are generally there with you no matter what, they are there with you no matter what the circumstance may be; even if they have to be left alone for a bit, they are always there with you. We need to take things day by day, and we need to not rush and get ahead of ourselves. After all, we are amazing human beings too and nothing is ever too late.